skybluepink

one good thing did come out of my accident. i thankfully have people who care enough to keep me, my sheriff's report and any photos that were taken, out of the local newspaper. and trust me when i say i live in a really small town and that accident, which was seen by many, should have been front page news. or at least front page of the B section.

1. people showed up already drunk. apparently, there were several pre-parties where people got toasted as there was only wine and beer served at our party and god forbid someone go without hard alcohol.

2. while the invite said one guest per colleague, many people felt that didn't pertain to them so they brought along their whole family and all of their friends. no joke. i have never seen so many people i didn't work with at a work event.

3. boobies and short dresses were on great display by waaay too many people that clearly didn't look in the mirror before they left home.

4. apparently 'festive attire, no jeans' means white jeans and fedoras for the guys and bad 80's prom dresses with glittery make up for the gals. and no, they weren't in costume. they really thought they looked good.

5. everyone talked over the owner when he was giving a 5 minute welcome/thank you/ happy holidays speech. apparently no one understands that if it weren't for him, none of us would be employed there.

6. the catering company served food with plastic gloved hands. maybe that's because the food was so awful they didn't want to make physical contact with it. we were served dried up pieces of meat which were rolled up to resemble a filet on a plate with peas and dried out potoatoes. the vegetarian plates weren't any better either ~ still frozen eggplant slices on dried out potatoes.

7. non colleagues won raffel prizes that were for colleagues only. like 2 night stays at the ritz and $250 gift certificates to restoration hardward. nice.

8. instead of good music to dance to, after about 10 minutes mexican music was played for the remainder of the evening.

9. several colleagues decided it was a good idea to vandalize artwork at the event center we were at.

10. when i said to the girl who was sitting next to me that i thought the acoustics in the building weren't very good, thus not being able to hear the speaker very well, she said that was a big word i was using and didn't know anyone who talked like that. um...okay.

11. the same girl asked me if i had my cell phone on me because she had given the baby sitter my phone number to call in case of a problem because she and her husband don't have a cell phone, and was surprised when i said i did not. her husband later went to their car to use onstar to call home and check in on their daughter.

12. several people who had been 'let go' within the past year decided that they should attend the party and proceeded to get hammered and loud and no one did anything about it.

13. our table was had a nice dynamic going until a loud, obnoxious, drunk former colleague sat down and proceed to use her cell phone to talk to someone across the room.

*in case i haven't mentioned this before, i work at a 4 star resort so one would think we would employ some people with class. apparently not.

i am so freaking irritated today. i am seriously pissed off and cannot shake this mood. i got out of bed late because it was maybe 3 degrees in my house, to find hubby ALREADY in the bathroom. he's not supposed to be in the bathroom before 7 am (we only have 1 mini bathroom in our house and i leave for work before him, hence me getting the earlier bathroom time) and he was in there almost 25 minutes early, and since he doesn't know how to share, i did not get to shower today. and since i didn't shower yesterday....yes, i know. gross. whatever. i don't need to hear it from you, too, stop judging.

when i started getting pissy with him, he went into this whole "well, if you hadn't been sitting around on your lazy ass" wtf? are you kidding me? i'm sorry i've been sick lately. and where the fuck does he get off getting pissy with me when HE is the one who got into the bathroom early. he then started in on my that i never go to the grocery store anymore so there is no food for him to eat and he has to stop off on his way to work today to get something. oh, give me a break. the only thing we're out of is his beloved breakfast bars. seriously. like i'm the only one who can go to the store? are you kidding me? sometimes i seriously want to smack the shit out of him. i guess he only had a kindness threshold for about a week and a half because he is no longer being the tender, kind hubby he was right after my accident.

okay. rant over.

on a good note, i talked to my insurance claims adjuster this morning and we will be getting back almost the full amount of what we owe on the volovo!! this is fantastic news. we will only be out roughly $1k so we can start looking for another one now. thank the jesus baby for that.

okay, i lied. one more sad thing. we can't find FINN! he went out on an adventure on sunday and hasn't shown up since! normally he goes out at night and comes back in early in the morning or at the very latest, at dinner time, but we haven't seen him in 3 days! and it's been so cold and windy....poor little bugger! i hope he comes home soon. hubby went searching for him last night, to no avail.

yesterday i got to have lunch with my delightful friend lisa and i was so glad. i don't get to see her very often and she's leaving for an exciting journey to italy in january so i was even more happy to be able to hang out with her. later on i got to spend time with my sponser and we went to dinner, too, so it was a day of much fun and food.

today i sent off a bit of cheer to my favorite buddy in my old stomping grounds and am putting together a few packages that i need to send to the midwest and the south. i need to get those out this week to ensure they will get to their destinations by christmas. and now that we have our tree up, i can start wrapping the goodies i have at home and filling the stockings with care. (and yes, sally, you should fill up lucy and rerun's stockings!! both finn and atty have stockings that get filled!)

i'm going to see one of my bestest friends and her husband this weekend for lunch or dinner, and i can't wait. oh shoot...i better get her goodies all wrapped up as well! :) this work stuff is sure getting in the way. heh.

it might be 10 degrees outside right now (okay, so maybe that's a bit of a stretch. it's probablly 42) and i have to pee and the bathroom is totally far away....i better get up and go. if i pee on myself i'll only be warm for a second. ewww...wot?!

Guess who was in the hospital again this morning. I swear, this is getting old now. My boss took me in a little after 8:15am because my left arm and hand went numb. Shortly thereafter, my upper lip, tongue and much of my face went numb, too. I was in the hospital for a little over 3 hours, was hooked up to an IV, had blood drawn and had a CT scan. A lot of stuff for a girl who is hardly ever sick. Hubby came to the hospital and was a doll, again. I was diagnosed with a certain kind of migraine and now I can't remember the exact name. Anyhow, this all happened to me once before, when I was in college 10 years ago. But that time my stoke-like symptoms came well after the migraine arrived, and this time the symptoms were there before any sign of the headache.

We left my car at work and headed home. After I was tucked into bed by hubby and Atty, hubby went to the pharmacy for my prescription. I slept for most of the afternoon and woke up just about an hour ago. My headache was still hanging on, so I took a pill, and OF COURSE I had a reaction to it ~ I got a few hives ~ but, since the headache is now pretty much gone, I'd say those few hives were worth it.

But really? SIGH.

While I was napping, Hubby called my regular doctor and made an appointment for me for tomorrow at 11:15 am. But, since my car is at work, 45 minutes away, Hubby will drive me to work, I will stay for a few hours, then head back to town for my appointment. I was hoping to go in after my appointment, but I do not have a ride. At any rate, I have a meeting with the general manager at 9:30 am and we have postponed this meeting already twice, so it's best that I go to that. As soon as it's over, I'll head out.

I am SO OVER ALL OF THIS!!!!

* i wanted to sleep in soo much this morning, but it didn't happen. finn wanted to be let in at 6:50 am and i couldn't fall back asleep. sigh. well, i guess i did sleep in for 20 minutes....

* i started cleaning my house soon after i got the coffee going. it wasn't cleaned at all last weekend due to my accident so it was really a disaster.

* at 10 am i went and got my eyebrows done. what a difference that makes! i'm pretty again. heh heh.

* i was back home by 10:24 am and though i thought i had done a lot of housework before i left, i had so much more to do. i started in on the kitchen, which was an utter disaster, and got the crock pot going with a pheasant hubby shot in november.

* last night at my usual aa meeting, i was elected secretary. what that means is that i will lead the meeting for six months starting the first friday in january. and since this is a speaker meeting, i will need to find a speaker for each meeting for 24 weeks. i started making my list last night at dinner of potential speakers. i'm looking forward to this new commitment, though.

* i made a new aa friend at the meeting i went to last wednesday night and i'm looking forward to spending time with her.

* i sat down at 2 pm this afternoon and planned on getting together with one of my girlfriends and i totally fell asleep until after 5 pm at which time hubby woke me up to say the power had been out for some time. so, i never got to see my girlfriend and my house was freezing. i was totally disorientated when i woke and i think it might have been the first time i really relaxed since my accident. anyhow, i texted my friend because my home phone was dead and i was in no shape to talk to anyone...but i haven't heard back. we didn't have any set plans, but i still feel real bad.

* the power finally came back on close to 7 pm. i hope the phesant is okay. it still smells really good. i took a bath to get warm and want to get back into bed. it's supposed to freeze tonight and we only have one small portable radiant heater that hubby refuses to turn on in the bedroom. something about burning the room down, which is just silly. i may just plug it in after he falls asleep.

* i'm ready for a hair change and made an appointment earlier this week to get my hair done in two weeks. i have no idea yet what i want to do. i welcome any suggestions...

* i did 4 loads of laundry and 2 sinkfulls of dishes and i'm still not done.

* rescue remedy is the most amazing line of products. ever. rescue sleep is hands down the best sleep aid i have ever taken. i wake up refreshed and without even the subtlest hint of a drug induced hangover. i also have used the regular spray and the lozenges, both of which are sooo amazing.

* i made pillsbury cinnamon rolls this morning and finn loves them. i caught him several times on the counter eating the frosting off the tops of a few of them. silly kitty.

To the wonderful friends in my life for which i truly believe i would not be here without your continued love, kindness and unwavering support. i heart you all sooo much! xoxoxo (in no particular order)

well, i'm official at work now. i finally got my business cards. oot oot. it only took 2 1/2 months...but hey! that's okay.

yesterday was a nightmare day as i had to deal with princess and i seriously wanted to strangle her. her new name is the wicked witch because princess is just too nice of a name for her. anywho, i'm done with yesterday and moving on to today, which is already better. i bought eggnog this week and have been adding it to my morning coffee instead of my usual half and half and it's so darn tasty.

on my way home last night i shuffled through hubby's 6 disk cd changer, as i have brought music back into my drive, and came across an aa speaker cd. i normally prefer to listen to music rather than talk, but thought i would give the cd a shot. i thought it would be some normal circut speaker, but i was happily surprised to hear one of my favorite actors as the speaker. he had an amazing story. it was really good to hear, too. i finished listening to it on my way to work this morning then followed up with a new cd i bought over the weekend. i am definitely in the christmas spirit now!

i bought some homeopathic stress relief goodies last night at the local pharmacy. while i have taken traditional over-the-counter and perscribed things for stress and anxiety, my massage lady on monday night recommended this brand of goodies. i like that everything is natural and that it's mostly made out of flowers. i bought several of the products, so i will let you know in a few days how it all works. i also bought some new bath salts so i had a very delightful bath last night. i have had at least one bath a day since the accident and it sure has helped calm my mind and soothe my aches.

well, today was my first day back at work. i drove the trail blazer without the radio and didn't drink my coffee, either. i was a bit unnerving, but i made it. my heart beat extra hard when i pulled into work. as i parked my car, i couldn't figure out how to turn of some of the lights and had to call hubby twice to help me.

finally inside my office, i began to settle down. well, until my boss came in. he told me i could take my time coming back and he thought i should perhaps spend a little more time at home. then in a meeting a little bit later, his boss told me the same thing, which totally made me tear up. later, the hr director called to see how i was doing and two of my friends stopped by to check on me. i definitely felt the love.

i did leave work early today, just after 1:15 pm. the drive home was okay, except for the part when a large truck going in the opposite direction dropped a large cylinder from his truck that i had to swerve not to miss (i was on a two lane road). but, i stopped by mcdonalds on the way home and have been hanging out with the kittie nurses ever since. atty is letting me treat him like a rag doll, which i really appreciate.

but, on a better note, i am more than half way done with my christmas shopping. yay! i am done with my girlfriends, hubby and my mom. now i just have my dad and hubby's mom. hubby takes care of his brother and dad, so i'm off the hook there. i still have yet to tackle my christmas card list....

well, something has definitely set in, though i'm not sure what.

my outing with my mil was good. i was a bit shaky at the start, gripping the steering wheel much harder than necessary and feeling my heart race as we wandered around the plaza, but it was good. mil was very nice and it was really pleasant. i found a few goodies for friends and my mom. i also bought a fantastic pair of shoes for my upcoming holiday party at work.

i had to hit the grocery store on the way home and for some reason, that was a little hard for me. i was in and out quite quickly, but it still unnerved me a bit. i don't think i'm depressed, but i'm definitely feeling something. i am still so thankful to everyone who has been so kind to me, especially hubby. mil even gifted me her massage appointment for tomorrow night AND is paying for it. i'm nervous about going back to work tomorrow, though i don't know why.

my perspective on things have definitely changed, now that i realize just how much can really change in the blink of an eye. experiencing this scariness first hand has definitely left an impact on my thinking.

today is the first sunday of advent. i grew up catholic, but have since stepped away from the church. while there are many things i enjoy about catholicism, especially all the traditions, i often have trouble with so much of the fire and brimstone that seems to be everywhere. i am more spiritual than anything else and try hard to find my inner peace. i believe in so many things that i can't put my beliefs in one religious basket.

that all being said, i still find so much joy at christmas time and am always brought back to my happy memories, most of which include the church. growing up, my mom made a beautiful advent wreath with pinecones, berries and 4 red candles. we also had several advent calendars that i would open each day of december. our house was decorated in more of a german traditional style than american and i try to emanate that in my own home. a few years ago my mom sent me an advent wreath like the one at she has and last year i found the same carousel she has.hubby and i got down our christmas boxes yesterday and we're going to decorate the house today. i was still hurting too much yesterday to be of much help, so we decided to wait until today.



hubby got up super early to go hunting while i slept with the kitties. at around 7:30 this morning, our power went out, which was great, as it was only in the mid 30's. so that mean no heat and most sadly, no coffee. i hung out with the cats, who still haven't left my side and cuddled until the power went back on, shortly after 9 am. i guess the power has been going out more and more recently as we have an enormous flock of starling birds who have taken to landing on the electrical wires all at the same time and flying off at the same time which causes the power wires to pop and cut all power. it's quite eerie to see them flying around all together. it's like being in the birds.

well, i'm off to do a little christmas shopping with my mil. she called a few minutes ago to see if i wanted to go for a bit and since i haven't really been out of the house since my accident, i think that it's good that i get out. it will be my first time driving, so a little jaunt into town will be good for me. like a test run for going to work for tomorrow.

today is the first day i'm starting to feel a bit normal. i'm still as sore as can be but my spirit has lifted considerably. hubby as been amazing, as have the kitties. hubby has gone above and beyond in his caring for me, which i am so thankful for. atty has not left my side, which is much needed as well. both he and finn slept on me for most of the day yesterday. we all slept as a family in the living room for the second night in a row ~ the L shaped couch we have is more comfortable for me than the bed right now ~ so hubby slept on one part of the L and i slept on the other and the kitties slept in between us.

today i have gotten up and about and am working through the soreness. i have started some laundry and helped hubby take down the christmas decorations from the attic. my entire upper body is screaming at me, but i can't lay down anymore. i know i will take it easy today, but i have to move around a bit.

i haven't been on the computer since thursday afternoon, so i have a lot to catch up on as well. my previous two posts were done via my blackberry on the couch. i have waded through a ton of mail from the past 3 days ~ this time of year is especially bad with all the various cataloges and random mailers ~ and have had to pay a bunch of bills. it's amazing how much piles up after just a few days. i have literally done nothing since wednesday night, so i have a lot to catch up on. i never realized how much i do at home on a daily basis.

holy crap. i just realized it's december 1. crap. not only do i have to pay rent today, i also have to start in on my christmas cards. well, luckily i can do those from the couch.