skybluepink

it has been such a quiet day compared to the rest of the week. i really haven't gotten a lot of work accomplished today. i'm just so not motivated to do anything. and the weather is back to being sunny and nice. i met a girlfriend for lunch and we sat outside and i didn't want to go back in. i did a lot of surfing on line and found a bunch of cool websites and bought a new book and some new music.

i've had such a stressful few days that it's nice to have a slower day. last night i got the wireless up and running at home and that's fantastic. now i can be anywhere and be online, including outside, which is so great. sometimes i don't like sitting at a desk, especially when one of the kitties decides to take a crap and the litter box is so nicely next to the desk....

yesterday was my mom's 70th birthday and i didn't call. before the weekend i went home in january, i had seen a show that had such a beautiful gift. it was a heart and triangle pendant. the heart represented the adoptive mother and the triange represented the adoptive child. i thought it was really nice, so i bought one for her in 14k gold and one for me in sterling silver. after the weekend, i decided i couldn't deal anymore, and have not sent it to her and doubt that i ever will. my whole life i have never felt close to her, or anyone in my family, no matter how much i tried. i thought that maybe somehow, giving her the necklace would bring us closer, but that weekend was so awful, and my life without her for so long has been so great, that i just don't see the point anymore. when i look back on things in my life, i am saddened by the fact that i have never had a close relationship with either of my parents. i know they are not happy people and i have worked so hard to surround myself with people who are happy with themselves, so it's really best for me to keep away.

on a happier note, one of the guys i work with knows some people who have a goat farm. i'm going to go visit on saturday. they have 500 goats! and all the goats have a little collar on with their name on it. yes, each of the 500 goats have a different name. i can't wait. i love goats.

well, i need to head on home so i can clean up the house a bit. tomorrow is trash day so i try to do a general clean and get most of the stuff done so i don't have to do it all over the weekend. plus i know miss fleurs dropped off my weekly stash.....