skybluepink

what a friggen day. it started out well, then went in so many different directions. lunch with flowergirl was great. we really do have a lot in common. we shared secrets, but i totally felt like we were talking like we were old friends. i shared openly and honestly without fear, something i haven't done in so long. i really felt like she wasn't judging me, which is very new for me. i wish we could have hung out longer, but my other friend called and was running early, so i had to be home on time. i really want to hang out with flowergirl some more. hopefully we'll run into each other tomorrow sometime.

my other friend showed up and we headed over to the spa. i kind of didn't want to go, as i'm really trying to save money, but it was a nice day out and wanted to get in some mineral water soad time. we hung out for a good hour in the waters before our appointments and that was just great. it was so awesome to be in the pool outside in the middle of february. it was luxurious. we headed inside for our treatments and they were so decadent. it took a good 2 hours to get mani/pedis. we had to rush a bit towards the end because her mother-in-law had decided last minute to stop by for dinner so she had to hit the road. we didn't get to shower at the spa, something i really enjoy, but that was okay.

the bill was astronomical, and i was totally unprepaired for that. i never really paid attention to the price before we went, and i knew i got a 40% discount for the month, but i still never thought it would be as much as it was. i put it on the credit card and will go back tomorrow to make sure the price was right. after she was on her way home, i told c and he hit the roof. i really do feel bad about the cost. i had no intention of it being so expensive. it was a decadent treat,though. needless to say, i won't be getting a mani/pedi there for a LONG time!

after c got upset with me, i headed out to the grocery store. it drives me nuts that he complains about us being out of food but he won't go to the store himself. he thinks it's my job. grr. oh, but he'll totally go there and get himself something to eat or drink with total disregard for my hunger or thurst. i just hate that. he claims that he doesn't know what we need, or what the balance is on the account (the account part is true, i'm horrible at updating quicken) but still. he could totally go and get a few things instead of complaining about it. but i guess it's easier that way.

the also made some snide remark how i wasn't going to mop the floor again this weekend. i do so much friggen stuff around the house and all he always sees is what i don't do. i hate that. i clean the bathroom, do the laundry, do the grocery shopping, pay the bills, order netflix (okay, that's brainless) do the dishes 95% of the time...ext and all he can see is that i don't mop the floor. if he dusts, he'll move things and not put them back because he thinks my side of the room/office/my space is too cluttered for him to put things back. well, if he takes them down, he needs to but them back. humph.

so after i got back from the grocery store, i mopped the floors. i was going to start dinner when c reminded me that it was monday and we had meetings to go to. i would have totally forgotten to go so i'm really glad he reminded me. i totally lost track of what day it was.

the meeting i went to was good and i was glad that i went. i smoked a cigarette on the way and listened to no doubt and fiona apple. i'm going to try a new meeting tomorrow at 5:30 pm. i've heard it's good. i'm thinking of getting a new sponsor, too. i need to talk to someone about that. my current sponsor is just so unavailiable to me and it's really not helping me at all. tomorrow i'll have 5 months of sobriety and i have only met with her once and have only gotten to thru step one. i really need to get on with things. she is either ill or has a migraine. this is not working for me.

i wish i didn't have to go to work tomorrow. i've had 3 days off and i could use 3 more.

magnum is calling from the other room again, but my bed is screaming louder.