and by it, i mean me. i am in a horrible mood today and the people i work with are only making it worse. i work with the biggest bunch of idiots and i have figured out why. see, i work in the service industry right now and you don't have to be smart to be here. in fact, they don't even care if you have finished high school or can speak english to work in service, at least around here.
yes, i know. everyone has got to start somewhere. but seriously? i'm so over it.
just this weekend our IT guy had to move the 'company-all' email to the bottom of the email directory because so many people accidently send 'comapny-all' emails because they are not paying attention when they are cc'ing on email. really? is it that hard to look at who you are sending an email to before you hit send? and these are people in management who are making this error.
another thing that drive me batty is that people who work here think they are at the same level socially and financially as the people who stay here. um..are you fucking kidding me? we are a 5 star resort. our rooms start at $800 a night and go to well over $2,000. our restaurant has the same reputation as the french laundry and you're trying to tell me that because you work here, you think you are just as affluent as those who stay here? i bet the highest income earner here is only in the mid 70K range. (yes, this is a good salary..but not if you're upper level management!) and that might be two or three people, max. pretty much everyone here is a blue collar worker. now, i'm not saying that's a bad thing. i'm just stating a fact.
just the other day at a meeting, someone in charge commented how we might be going into a recession. um...really? this has been on the news for MONTHS and you are just now paying attention? also, the type of clientele we have here would not be impacted by a recession. the people who stay here do so because it is mere pocket change to them. many are celebrites, socialites and political figures who could give a rat's ass about how much they are spending.
another thing that's weird about the people here is they think i drive a totally fancy car-- and i am only driving a 2003 chevy trail blazer. sure, it's got a few bells and whistles, but it's a freaking chevy. you should have seen their eyes bug out when i had my volvo. you would have though i drove up in a bently. the other day i was mentioning to my boss that hubby and i had been looking at volvos again and had found one almost exactly like the one we had for only 24K and he looking at me like i had two heads for wanting to spend that much. he then went on to tell me how i could buy a new american car for way less. um, no thanks. it's called safety. i want to feel safe and walk away from an accident like i just did. if i had been in my american made saturn, i would not have been so lucky.
maybe it's just me, but working in corporate environments and other industries has left me with a higher set of standards than the people here could even manage to attain. everyone here thinks it's fine to work at an hourly wage, punch the time clock and get overtime for some extra hours. holidays are at a premium, but hey, we do get time and a half if we work on them. and that's fine for some people, but just not me.
and while i have a decent position and get decent pay, i am still hourly and it drives me nuts. i don't know the last job i had that was hourly. maybe working retail when i was in college. i'm all for people working in the service industry, but it's just not for me. especially at a place where people have such an attitude and they are stupid on top of it. i used to agree with the "those who can't do, teach" but now, i believe the correct saying is "those who can't do, work in the service industry". teachers at least have an education and are giving others an education. and the are doing. people here are not doing and would never, ever make it in the real world.
but, i am going to continue sucking it up an stay until i have the peanut. i will probably not come back after that. i can only take this for so much longer. i need to be around people who can at least write in complete gramatically correct sentences or god forbid use spell check before a document goes out.
i am so tired of feeling like crap. i am so tired of this horrible haircut. i am so tired of people not leaving me alone.
yes, i know i will feel better eventually. yes, i know my hair will eventually grow. yes, i will call you back, eventually. but right now? it's time for me, not you.
i've had a tough past few months and i just want to be left alone. why is that so hard for some people to understand? just because i haven't called or written doesn't mean i don't like you anymore, it just means i have stuff going on. sometimes i just don't want to talk to anyone. i really don't feel like being social right now.
don't worry, i'll be back to my normal, social self, eventually. just, please. stop taking it so damn personally if i haven't been in touch.
the delightful maybelline tagged me for this meme and while it took a bit of searching through my previous posts to find something good, it was fun to check out the stuff i had forgotten about.
here are the rules: post 5 links to 5 of your previously written posts. the posts have to relate to the 5 key words given here (family, friend, yourself, your love, anything you like). tag 5 other friends to do this meme. try to tag at least 2 new acquaintances (if not, your current blog buddies will do) so that you get to know them each a little bit better.
family: trials and tribulations with my mother and my mil
friend: i'm so glad for all my friends
yourself: sometimes i'm a little fussy
your love: all the crazy boys i dated before hubby
anything you like: our beloved finn, who we miss dearly
okay ... now it's time to pass it along. i tag sally, terry, gypsy, maggie and gina.
so the last two days i have been feeling pretty good, with almost no nausea. today i had a little and figured it was hunger. on my way home from work i was hungry again and a colleague said she was going to kfc and that sounded so tasty so i thought i would stop as well. i gobbled my meal on the drive home. i was doing fine for a while, then i got an awful stomach ache and curled up on the couch in the fetal position. my heart started racing and i felt just terrible. low and behold, i had to run to the bathroom. this was so much worse than the other day. i guess the peanut doesn't like kfc because it all came up. 4 times. i feel better, but not much. i'm going to bed with hopes of feeling better.
1. i bought some girlie magazines this week, cosmo and glamour, and i no longer can relate to the articles, fashon or verbage. and all the talk about gen y! holy cow. i didn't realize that gen x was no longer relavant in those magazines...
2. when i talk about the great music from the 80's, most of my colleagues have no idea what i'm talking about since they were BORN in the 80's.
3. same goes with movies i talk about. many of my colleagues have never seen (or heard of) such classics as the karate kid, the goonies or all the brat pack movies.
4. when shopping with a girlfriend for her daughter's birthday, i realized how awful children's games are. candyland and shoots and ladders look nothing like they did when i was growing up. now everything i s all politically correct and way too plastic.
5. i find children's programing to be awful. what happened to the smurfs, captin kangaroo, school house rock and 3-2-1 contact? at least reading rainbow is still on...
6. i would much rather spend a little extra on clothes that will last longer and wear better than buy what is super trendy or super cheap.
7. going out for coffee and having a great conversation with a friend is more appealing to me than going to a club.
8. i would rather buy a safe care than a flashy car.
9. i actually want to (and make enough to) have money in savings rather than spend everything as soon as i get it.
10. my vacations are planned out and saved for so i can get the most for my money and go somewhere different each time.
11. i realized the other day that i had graduated high school 15 years ago this june and that i really can't relate to kid's who are in high school now.
12. i would rather meet a girlfriend for brunch than go out and party all night long.
13. seeing a kid with a cell phone. i didn't have a cell phone until midway through college. now kids as little as 5 years old have actual cell phones! it's crazy! sure, parents say it's so they know where their kid is at all times. but seriously? shouldn't you know where your kid is? especially when they're that young? even through high school you should be able to know where your kid is.
hubby just left town on a business trip. he'll be gone until late friday night. i'm already sad that he's gone. though the house will be quiet and i can watch what i want on tv, i still like having him around. i did make him dinner even though i was feeling pretty crappy. and now i REALLY don't want to do the dishes. but, at least he's not here to nag me on them. heh. but i want to feel better, dammit! sigh.
i have been weaning off my antianxiety meds and i think i'm feeling the effects. but i'm not sure since i know moodiness is part of being pregnant. i'm feeling more anxious at night, especially when i'm sleeping. not only do i wake up to pee in the middle of the night now, but i also wake up feeling anxious. it hasn't been bad, but a bit annoying. i'm trying to keep mellow and relax, but i hate being anxious. and i'm not anxious over anything in particular, either. it's just this general feeling of uneasiness that creeps up on me and makes me panic.
i can now put my hair into a tiny, mini pony tale of about an inch or two. it gives me a tiny bit of satisfaction to be able to do that because as much as other people like my hair, i don't like it one bit. it make me sad to see photos of myself with long hair. this weekend i'm going to get highlights so i'm hoping that'll help. i know that some women go through an 'ugly phase' and i am definitely there right now.
well, i made it to 9 1/2 weeks without getting sick. just as i was about to leave the house this morning, that unmistakable unplesant feeling came over me and i had to rush to the toilet. sigh. hubby was in the shower at the time and opened the door as i was finishing up to say "well, i guess this means the peanut is getting bigger!" at least he can find humor in all of this.
i'm just glad there is a sink in my office here at work. i have a feeling i'll be feeling quite green for most of the day today.
i have to apologize to my dear friend, the white bear. you see, i deleted his comment this morning totally unknowingly. well, no, i knowingly deleted it, i just didn't know it was my darling friend who wrote the comment. you see, he wrote about all the great people who have birthdays on august 18. not knowing why that had appeared on my blog, i thought it was spam. i'm a total tweeker because i couldn't figure out why someone was commenting about that date. um, hello. because i said it was my due date. he was being sweet and telling me what great people were also born on that day. sigh. i'm such a tweeker and so hearfully sorry i offened him by deleting the post.
1. Do you wear a name tag at work? i am supposed to, but i never do.
2. What kind of car do you drive? hubby's 2003 chevy trail blazer
3. What do you order when you go to Taco Bell? mexican pizza and a bean and cheese burrito
4. Have you ever had a garage sale? of course!
5. What color is your iPod? black
6. What kind of dog do you have? none, but I have two adorable cats
7. What's for dinner tonight? i have no idea. Oh wait! it's date night! we're going out!
8. What is the last alcoholic beverage you had? i would guess wine...i was in a blackout at the time...
9. Stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone? probablly called or texted someone i shouldn't have.
10. Last time you were sick? does morning sickness count? because then i'm sick now.
11. How long is your hair? really,really short.
12. Are you happy right now? yes. i actually am. especially since it's friday! whoot!
13. What did you say last? "yeah, they have one tracked minds. the don't look farther than the task at hand."
14. Who came over last? a gal i just met in aa.
15. Do you drink beer? non alcoholic beer.
16. Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted? well, i am adopted...so i have no idea if i have brothers and sisters!
17. What is your favorite key chain on your keys? i don't have any keychains on my keys.
18. What did you get for graduation? a sterling silver cross pen and pencil set with my name engraved on it when i graduated from high school and nothing when i graduated from college.
19. What's in your pocket? lint.
20. Who introduced you to Dane Cook? the movie 'waiting'
21. Has someone ever made you a Build-A-Bear? no
22. What DVD is in your DVD player? it's empty right now
23. What's something fun you did today? i'm at work so i haven't done anything fun yet.
24. Who is/was the principal of your high school? holy cow. i have no idea.
25. Has your house ever been TP'd? my house growing up was
26. What do you think of when you hear the word "meow"? my kitties
27. What are you listening to right now? my space heater and a classic rock station
28. Drinking? water.
29. What is your favorite aisle at Wal-Mart? none. i don't like wal-mart.
30. When is your mom's birthday? march 21
31. When is your birthday? september 17
32. What's the area code for your cell phone? the one for my town
33. Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now? anthropologie
34. Is there anything hanging from your rear view mirror? nope
35. How many states in the US have you been to? i have no idea. maybe 20.
36. What kind of milk do you drink? whole
37. What are you going to do after this? get a snack and go pee. again.
38. Who was the last person you went shopping with? hubby
39. What is your favorite fruit? peaches and pears
40. What about your favorite dessert? pastry
41. What is something you need to go shopping for? food
42. Do you have the same name as one of your relatives? no
43. What kind of car does one of your siblings drive? i don't have any
44. Do you like pickles? yum. especially the ones we make from our garden.
45. How about olives? yum on those too
46. What is your favorite kind of gum? anything spearamint
47. What is your favorite kind of juice? right now i like cranberry-peach
48. Do you have any tan lines? no. it's the middle of january!
49. What hospital were you born in? st. anne's in downtown los angeles
Yes, folks. This was in the local paper today...
Mullet man surrenders shoplifted salami
Posted: Thursday, January 10, 2008 6:08 PM PST
Dispatched to Lucky supermarket around 11:30 a.m. on Sunday, Dec. 30, following a shoplifting report, XX police learned that a white male, about 50 years old with brown hair in a mullet cut, had been confronted by the store manager in the parking lot.The manager accused the man of failing to pay for a salami when he went through the self-checkout line and paid only for a bag of chips.The manager later told police he argued back and forth with the man for several moments, spurred by suspicions from the man's earlier visits to the store when his behavior aroused attention.After a heated dispute, the man pulled the salami out of his bag, gave it to the manager, and then got into a car, described by the manager as a gray Suzuki Swift, and headed northbound on Highway XX toward McDonald's. Police are now looking for a man in a mullet driving a Swift, a somewhat unusual combination of coiffure and car that could make identifying the would-be salami thief a little easier.
Seriously. You can't make this shit up!
i swear, i have been so zapped of energy these days. at least i know why, now, though! i went to the doc on tuesday and found out that i am 8 weeks along and that i am due on august 18. i had my first ultrasound and saw my little peanut growing. to see the heartbeat was amazing. i still can't believe this is happening. hubby is way excited, which is great.
we went over our finances on sunday to see how we can manage on just his salary. we have no idea yet how long i will take off work. on one hand, we would be okay on his salary, being thrify and all, but on the other, his folks are so close by they could be day care for us. BUT having is mom take care of the little one on a daily basis scares me to bits.
i used to resent sahm's, but that's because i knew a few that were just awful. sure, they would be at home with the kid(s) all day, but they didn't do anything around the house. they didn't clean, cook or do laundry. they didn't even make dinner for their husband's who worked all day. i mean, if you're going to stay at home and take care of the kid(s) the least you can do is stuff around the house as well. and yes, i understand taking care of a little one is challenging, but seriously. you can do other stuff, too.
i also have a friend who is rather well off due to her husband making a ton of money. she has all the hired help you can imagine, yet still has the audacity to complain how hard motherhood is and how she is tired all the time. why she is always tired beats me as everyone else does the work for her.
i have no idea what will happen for us. i don't know that i could stay home full time. i think i might go a little batty without adult interatction. or am i just getting a little too far ahead of myself now? : )
first of all, you all are so kind. thank you all for your kind responses.
it's been quite the week, let me tell you! i found out on monday ~ new year's eve ~ that i was expecting. i had been feeling crummy for a while and decided to take a test ~ at work no less. i didn't believe it at first, but then all the signs were there, so i had to believe. i wasn't going to tell hubby until i got home that day, but he ended up calling me in the afternoon so i told him. there was silence for quite a while on the other end of the line, but he was excited. never once has he muttered a harsh or unkind word, which has been wonderful.
i scheduled an appointment with my gp/obgyn for friday where i got the professional confirmation. she then had me make an appointment with the ob, with whom i will meet with tomorrow afternoon. right now we're guestimating that i am about 6-8 weeks along, thus in the middle of morning sickness, which i do not like one bit. i am pretty much nauseous all the time. it sucks. i haven't gotten sick, but being nauseous for the past few weeks hasn't been much fun, either.
we told our folks after the dr appointment on friday. his mom started crying and his dad said they had given up on us long ago. nice. we've only been married a little over 4 years. and it's not like we're 45 and starting a family. my mother was more excited than i have ever heard. she has never been proud of me before, so this was unusual.
hubby has been quite supportive, even getting me strawberry milkshakes anytime i desire one ~ which is a lot. normally he would never go out of his way to stop, now he does it all the time. it's very sweet and i know i need to milk it for all it's worth!
i no longer drink coffee because i cannot stand the smell! i used to drink a pot a day...so this has been a big change for me. i am now finding new things to eat, which will definitely help me eat healthy for the long run. being at work is hard as the cafeteria here isn't very 'pregnacy friendly' with food. i've been eating a lot of peanut butter and jelly on toast.
my chest has already grown and is so painful. i am busting out of my 'c' cup, so i need to buy a bigger bra soon. i've been sleeping in my bra to give my chest a little extra support when i sleep. needless to say, hubby is quite pleased with the increase in my chest. heh.
nausea day and night for the past few weeks, with no relief in sight
a decreased amount of energy, regardless of how long i sleep or how many naps i take
supremely tender breasts
a heightened sense of smell
the desire for coffee completely gone, the smell of which even turns my stomach
and an increase in the amount of times i have to pee each day
all comes down to one thing. one crazy, happy, scary, unbelievable thing.
i'm pregnant.
the rain is coming down sideways and the wind is gusting at about 40 miles an hour. nice. i'm so not driving to work after my appointment today. hubby called a little while ago and said he didn't go over 40 mph his whole way to work and there was standing water everywhere, which will be a lot worse by the time i head over (we both work in the same area, though my commute is 25 minutes longer).
my wind chime i've had since college was broken last night and that makes me sad. the top part that is still connected to the front porch is still blowing fiercely in the wind, twisting and turning like mad. i have no idea where the metal chimes have gone.
my front yard is totally flooded and i'm expecting the power to go out at any time. normally i like storms, but this one is totally freaking me out.
i have to work on our house finances today but i'm totally lagging on doing that. i'm catching up on the hills right now instead. ha.
our big winter storm is here, pouring buckets and buckets of rain. we're expected to get 5 inches of rain in the next few days and the mountains are to get around 10 feet of fresh snow. there is a high wind warning in effect for the next few days as well, as it's supposed to reach 50 miles an hour in some places. we desperately need the rain, so this this storm will be good. and i love a good storm. i just wish i wasn't at work...but i'll make the best of it, tucked away in my office without any windows. i can hear the rain pounding away outside, which i like. i won't open the door since it's so cold outside, though.
i have a doctor's appointment tomorrow so my boss told me to check the weather reports before i come in as it may be too bad of a drive. is it bad that i'm secretly hoping not to have to drive in? my appointment is at 11:15a, so i won't be able to come in first as it would be silly to drive 45 minutes and work for 2 hours to just turn around and drive 45 minutes back, have my appointment then drive back again. so i figure i'll just go in late and stay a little late. but we'll see how it all pans out. as much as i like the rain and storms, i don't like driving in them at all.
