skybluepink

i'm in such a spot right now. i've started looking for work again, well half heartedly, to be quite honest. i just don't want to do what i had previously been doing, but like a moth to a flame, i keep looking at those type of job postings. i would so much rather be doing something else, yet i have no idea what that something else might be. i have a strong desire to write, but as much as i say that, i still have yet to act upon it. hubby has started putting the pressure on me and while he is not coming out and saying much, i know he's feeling that i'm a lazy, no good, stay at home....err...well, maybe he's not thinking that, but i sure am. i do know that it's starting to get to him. he tells me he doesn't understand how i can't hold down a job, but really? i hold them down pretty well, thank you very much. i was at the job before this....wait and pretty much all my jobs before this...for at least a year and a half. while that is not a stellar record, at least i passed the year mark. and i left those other jobs for good reason. but whatever. i'm just in a bit of a mood right now. i want to have a good cry, but there's nothing left. atty has just come in from the wilds of the yard, so i'm going to have a good cuddle. and yes, i will continue to pout. so there.