i in a very meloncholy mood today. i don't really want to be at work, nor do i want to be at home if c is there. we went to bed last night still not speaking to each other. he kicked me durning the night in his deep sleep. he's angry with me because he think i intentionally killed his garden, which i didn't. i told him i watered and he doesn't believe me. whatever. there's only so much i can do. anyhow, i think we're still not on speaking terms, which is interesting. i hate tension. but i also hate the silent treatment. i grew up with the silent treatment so i don't like it at all.
i just ordered a few books from amazon: Learning Curves by Gemma Townley, Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides and Where I'm From by George Ella Lyon. i'm going to take these, along with several copies of The New Yorker (which I have yet to read) with me on my trip to hawaii next week. i am looking forward to laying on the beach and doing nothing but relaxing. i hope to god that we are not still dealing with this whole silent treatment thing, because believe me, it's getting really old.